Envy Incarnate
If you're familiar with the seven deadly sins, then mine is definitely envy.
I remember back in high school, someone in my class appointed one of the deadly to my classmates for fun. When he got to me, he said mine was envy. I just sort of shrugged it off at the time, as it was moreso just a joke in his terms; however, as time goes on and with my circumstances, I realized that my deadly sin is not just envy, but I am the literal embodiment of envy.
I get jealous over everything. Any post, comment, literally anything that can be considered stupid, I get very jealous of. Anytime people share something positive about themselves, like how they were playing games with friends or sharing personal achievements, I get jealous and it unfortunately ruins my day. What's the point when they're doing better?
The sad part? I don't know how to change it.
Just be grateful of the things you already have. And then what? What's the point when people have more things, and potentially better things? My jealousy is so bad, that it led me to just... giving up on life and everything involved. What's the point when better and more important people exist? What's the point when people get the attention and validation I wish I could have?
It really makes me want to cry. I don't know if I'll ever get rid of this jealousy. It's definitely ruining my confidence, social skills, and just my life in general. I really don't know why I bother anymore. Maybe I really am just broken and can never be fixed like an ex-friend said years ago.
A real shame.